(taken by me)
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(taken by me)
You are the daydream I fall asleep to.
You are the breeze on a hot summer’s day.
You are the dry blanket and hot cocoa after getting caught in the rain.
You are the seedling that grows in the sidewalk crevice.
You are the sun and I am a sunflower.
You are the shore and I am the sea.
You are the stars and I am the moon.
You are the waves and I am the reef.
I can’t promise you we won’t fight. I can’t promise you I won’t get mad at you. But I can promise I’ll keep fighting for you. You deserve better than her and I can’t promise that but I can promise how much I’d try. You’re worth it. I knew it from the day we met. You will always be worth it to me. You make me like you, even when I’m mad at you. You make me want to cheer you up when you’re sad. Your smile just brightens up the room. You make me want to be a better person and only one other person has had that kind of effect on my life. That’s what scares me the most I think. You. How much I freaking like you. But you have her. And you seem happy. But if tv shows have taught me one thing, it’s that life is messy. Things happen. People fall out of touch. So maybe I have the slightest chance of one day being the person that makes you want to be better. Maybe I’ll have the slightest chance of making you want to cheer me up. Maybe I’ll have the slightest chance of being worth it to you. I’ll take that chance to be able to occupy a corner of your heart.
It’s been 10 years since I’ve made that fateful realization. 10 years since I’ve figured it out. 10 years since you looked like more than just what was standing right in front of me. 10 years since I’ve figured out maybe I have some daddy issues. Daddy issues that I don’t want to change. Because all those days at the pool, I’d never want to give up. All that time spent with you was time well spent. All those silly little drills were worth it. Being stuck on you forever was worth it. You will always have a corner of my heart and I hope I have a corner of yours.
I love you. Oh… oh, my God. That just came… flying out of my face, like it was some kind of… I love you. I just… did it again! I… I love you. I do. I just… I love you. And I have been trying not to say it. I have been trying so hard to just mash it down and ignore it and not say it.
First time in a while that I dreamt about you. In years actually. It felt amazing hugging you. You remembered me. I miss you so much. There’s this guy at work, he reminds me a lot of you. The way he looks. How caring he is. You can’t help but swoon when you see him. He’s not you and I know it would be selfish of me to think if it was. But I just can’t help it. I miss you. I miss your hugs. I miss seeing your smiling face. Your laughing eyes. Your caring heart.
Salt tangled hair.
Sun kissed skin.
Sand covered toes.
Play on her shores.
Dance in her waters.
You’re like a breath of fresh air. It was like I was dying. Needing a new change. Needing anything but this island. But now everything looks beautiful again. The brown grass has turned green. The flowers have bloomed again. The sky seems more blue than I remember. The sun’s warmth dances across my skin like something magnificent that I’ve never felt before. I find myself smiling for reasons unknown to my mind, but second nature to my heart. And when I see you, I’m home.